Sunday, June 28, 2009

Sunday..I needed to do it..

Life in the fast lane to Slow ride..music set's the life's tempo and rhythms at times..I loaded up the cd player with some old stuff yesterday and started writing..Hollister from someone that was there in 1947 but it grew..and as Bob Seger blasted out with Roll me Away my mind was churning..I went at it for eight hours and the short story became an encompassing view of biker, biking and brotherhood covering more than half a century..A short tale became sixty pages long..as read it through this early morning I smiled and thought it may be my best...it may never be seen by others..I emailed a copy to the man who made it happen..as the Band played The Night they drove old Dixie down..

Yesterday was also the first Red and White, North and South run..my two close bro's came by early to see if I was in..Not today..I can't remember ever not going because the body wouldn't let me..I not one to share personal issues..only a handful of people have any idea what's going on..Been dealing with lymphoma and what seemed to working stopped so the last 6 weeks have been intense treatment..For someone who doesn't know much more than busting ass 14 hours a day, sleeping a few and doing it again..it been rough..some days 3 or 4 hours and I done in..finished...Well the treatment is worse than the disease and Friday they pulled the tube..

No pity parties here OK..I'm am my own worst enemy..I smoke like a train, eat mostly red meat and junk food..If I could figure out how I would have hung a IV bag of Starbucks in the truck and feed it through the shunt tube..I ride when I should rest..I work and I have been lucky in the respect that before it got out of hand we were set up pretty close to being able to run stuff online. It doesn't matter now I am head back to being me..look out..

Well it's 6am..the suns sneaking over the hill..going to be a hot one..Got the urge to ride and some how I just got hungry..Bacon and eggs..and a thanks to those who share their lives with me and offer me the opportunity to do the same here in blogland..Live to ride, ride to live..you understand..

Rat

10 comments:

mq01 said...

what do you mean they "pulled the tube"? you mean you finished treatment and now have to retest? or wait and see? right?

ratone said...

Ya, pulled the shunt tube..only way it will ever go back in is if I can feed caffeine through it.Couple of weeks until we have an idea of where we are..Back to the oral meds..I'm doing good..ready to ride..

mq01 said...

pppppppppppffffffffffttttttttttt... that (your post) reads different.... glad your doing good.

ratone said...

Thanks Sunshine..it will be a couple of weeks until we see how the hard stuff worked..Hey I'm mister freaking positive..I am, I am...LOL..

FLHX_Dave said...

Here I thought you were going to sack out on the eternal dirtnap.

Well, keep the positive attutude and never give it up. Attitude is everything and it might not fix everything but it makes the quality of the time any of us have left just top shelf.

Take care. Take care.

Bitchy said...

Wow, glad I read all the coments before I started in at what cures, attudiudes steps and chanes one person has...
Really glad you are okay...
Really glad you are back to riding.

mq01 said...

hmmmm top shelf....yumm.... :) suddenly im thirsty...

ratone said...

I have a bro who buries me everytime I see him..Sorta religious, catholic..whoops..where I fall into the completely non category..you know what songs and who..at first it drove me nuts but then I started having fun with it..You know this person Sunshine so you can guess the reaction when I told him Highway to Hell for music and just flush the ashes..I have no intention of going anyplace soon and I don't do funerals..my own included...I got a bunch of places to see and rides to nowhere left..Now I just need to convince my doctor of that..

mq01 said...

rat :) sounds like bitchy has info/resources...

ratone said...

first check up today after the juicing..more meds..don't ride..rest and stay out of the sun..as I was riding home the 60 miles in the 95 degree heat I was thinking I must have miss understood..I felt better than I had felt in a long time twisting the throttle..Hey Bitchy any sources are welcome..thanks all..