Last Ride

Should have started east but went north, life had been sliding south...Eyes are letting me down, I can see but just have no trust in my vision..of anything around me..I decide riding a night is best, nobody can see my pain...
As I roll into Reno the morning sun begins to break..the thrill of the road soften the pain...Loss and lost my mind searches...why...on to Yreka maybe the answer lays between here and there...The road has never let me down...
Yreka has been good to me,for me in the past yet today it's just anothet spot on the map..a bed and a meal..On to Aberdeen..
Memories going on 30 years,,yes it has changed..I've changed..I feel loss..Those I have lost...those I need, those I turn my back on and those who waited..Why today in a place so remembered yet changed do these feeling tug at me so hard..I need the road..Boise
Chill as I roll in, with nothing in my mind to lose I chased my demons here..Pain was camped in my room..I need to keep running, escape..ride..Tulsa..
Sometime in the dead of night I awaken going 90, lightning flashes behind me...I let my life slip between my fingers, unfocused and uncaring until it was gone..I need it back..To JC I ride..
In big parking loy filled with cages I sit..I see..I ache for all things past..I feel pain,,I see pain...I run..I ride...I think..How did I do this...why can't the wind right me..The road sooth me as it had in the past...Reach out..break out...if all things meant to be are true you will know..I rode through the night with a plan..a dream...